NOTHING

When it seems I've lost so much; friends, being understood, possessions, structure and routine, the hobbies I enjoy, and when my hopes, dreams, and plans all seem completely impossible.  It is in this place my love and faith in God is tested.  Do I trust Him?  Is He really my EVERYTHING?  Do I love Him more than all these "things" that make up what we call life on this earth?  When prayers seem unanswered and life keeps going on, Lord do I still love and trust You?  On my walk tonight singing "for You I will lose this life, I will pick up my cross."  This life is temporary and these present sufferings are not worthy to be compared with the glory that shall be seen.  I am loved, I am not alone.  In every season He is faithful and a steadfast firm foundation.  When I am Nothing, only then can He truly become my everything.  It feels very dark right now, but somehow I still have peace, still have hope, and the Lord will lighten my darkness!